Reality Check

"I can't wait to grow up!" "I just want to go to work, and come home. I'm tired of school!" "I can't wait until I have my own place!" Yeah, these were the words that were coming out of my mouth 10 years ago, and boy do I regret them! My favorite quote is: "When did we become adults, and how do we make it stop?" lol Not that I don't love being an adult and being married, but there are some times when I just wish I could just go back home and let mom take care of it all. Things have been rough lately, but now days, I'm not the only one. I felt like we had just gotten settled a little when here comes the worry again. Can't I just have a break!?! Sometimes, I feel like this is God's way of keeping me in reality...hence the title, Reality Check! I want to finish my master's in education, I want to finally open my pet business, I want to..., I want to..., I want to...is all I say these days. I NEED to get off my butt and do something about it. I have a habit of wanting things RIGHT now, and then I get discouraged...easily!!! School is very important to me, but so is my business. If I had to make a choice, and I was guaranteed success, I would start my dog business tomorrow, but it's not that simple! I guess for right now, blogging and praying will help. Over the last couple of exhausting weeks, I have come to the conclusion that I will put my faith in God's hands to lead me in the right direction. Whatever he has in store for me, I will be appreciative of. Sometimes, it just gets the best of me! Gotta love life!

Introduction to the Hawkins

This is my first blog, and I have the best way to start it. I'm so excited about this upcoming weekend...it's my 5th wedding anniversary! Oh how the time has flown. Although Jason and I have been together for 8 years, it doesn't feel like we've been married for 5. I'm not real sure if that's a good or bad thing, but either way, it's been quite the journey. Jason and I have accomplished a lot in the last 5 years. Happiness, a beautiful 1st home, etc. We still have no children, but I'm not in any hurry for that next chapter in my life. I'm perfectly happy with my 3 wonderful dogs...Allie, Duke, and Lucy!!! I am again in Graduate school pursuing my master's degree in elementary ed. And this time I WILL FINISH!!! I have a habit of wanting things NOW and then I get discouraged. But, I am a determined person and I am determined to teach. Kids are my life...I know, I know...then why don't you have any? Well, I want to be settled so I can be a good mom. I know money is never there when you have children, but that's not what I mean. I want to be happy with my career and know that I'm ready to take care of someone else. Right now, I can barely take care of me and my husband. He's like having a grown child. I'm just getting practice. lol Jason is still working at Infolab. I think he's just waiting for me to finish my goals and then he will feel more comfortable to start on his. Life is wonderfully hectic right now, and I probably wouldn't want it any other way. When things are too easy, and everything goes my way, then I start to worry that it's all a trick. I like being on my toes and being prepared for whatever life throws at me. With all that said, I'm hoping for a very wonderful and promising 2009!!!